As it turns out, I forgot to account for the timezone offset in my previous post.
This next chart shows how many posts I made in each hour of the day over the past six years.
Unlike last time, I also created this fancy chart, which compares the hourly of each year. Since it's a bit messy, I still include the per-year hourly charts, though they are corrected as well.
There are some more charts after the jump.
Another uneventful download. I really like the 君の知らない物語 cover (YouTube) here.
Since everyone keeps asking, I decided to create this blog post to contain most of the details of what happened. I would've used Storify, except I wanted to host some photos on here and wanted to keep it outside of a 'normal' social network.
This pretty much summarizes how the bicycle ride that led up to the incident started:
My original plan for today was to hang out at one of the many local cafés, but then I realized that would've been a pointless endeavor.
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 24, 2012
Instead, I'm biking around Lake Washington. twitpic.com/bg49zi
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 24, 2012
Oh boy, time to start heading north! twitpic.com/bg4k9v
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 24, 2012
About 32 miles in, near SR-520, I went down:
It looks like I only managed to do around 32 miles before going down.I really should've brought food for this ride. twitter.com/takeshita_kenj…
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 26, 2012
I'm almost certain I went down somewhere along one of these orange lines. #cycling twitter.com/takeshita_kenj…
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 26, 2012
I was taken to the ER at Overlake Hospital in Bellevue.
I don't really remember the details of when I was out aside from the world seeming like a dream (like every concussion I've ever had), but I ended up with some wraps on my elbows and knee (just one knee), as well as stitches in my upper lip and just below my right eye. Oh, and a tetanus shot.
I've seen better days. twitpic.com/bg6lz7
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
My father picked me up and brought me to their place for supervision, since I had a concussion after all. Once there, he fixed my glasses for me, since one of the bits of the frame was twisted.
My father fixed my glasses. twitter.com/takeshita_kenj…
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
#stitches twitter.com/takeshita_kenj…
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
It's the next morning, and I have inflammation under my eye. twitter.com/takeshita_kenj…
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
I gave some thought to my current situation.
I'm thankful for: no broken bones; health insurance; family who can watch over me after I maim myself.
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
I'm also thankful for friends who care enough to come running when bad things happen.
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
I think a large part of the cause of the incident was allowing my blood sugar to drop enough to affect my thinking ability.Living is hard.
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
Considering this is me, I was obviously concerned about the status of my bicycle. My father and I, at my persisted demanding, went to the Kirkland Fire Department headquarters, which is closed on the weekends. I then looked into all of the fire stations, until I merely guessed that Fire Station #22 was the one we wanted based on the memories I was still piecing together. That was indeed the right fire station, however my bike had been taken to the hospital. We ended up going back there.
Thankfully, it was pretty much undamaged aside from a few minor scratches.
Thank goodness I know how to take it apart, since it's too big to fit in my father's car.
And after that and some nausea, I was home.
Back home.My father's driving styles leaves me nauseated, but I still really appreciate what he's done.
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
Since the worst was all over, I just went about my normal Sunday: farmers' market shopping, bread baking, and so on. I also set up plans to take Monday off, since I definitely couldn't handle the mental stress of work yet. I also went over everything that had transpired and made the above maps.
Oh yeah, I also got a new helmet since the old one could be potentially bad. This one is a tad larger and doesn't cut off blood flow like the old one did.
I like how my new helmet isn't too small. twitter.com/takeshita_kenj…
— 竹下憲二 (@takeshita_kenji) November 25, 2012
I leave you with the following lesson I've learned multiple times.
Some other lessons:
I already learned the lesson of not 'forcing' myself up hills, and to not be 'too proud' to downshift.
After downloading my Facebook data and feeding it into a Twitter account, I decided to generate some statistics. This first chart is the number of posts I've made each year.
This next chart shows how many posts I made in each hour of the day over the past six years.
There are some more charts after the jump.
As it turns out, @DaggsyD has been keeping track of some old sites and blogs I had. I was hoping to find some 'new' photograph content, but all I found was old textual posts.
Here are the blogs, from oldest to newest. 2004 must've been when I was in ninth grade, which was the last year of junior high where I grew up.
There were some photos, which you can find after the jump.
As a follow-on to my previous post, I also tried to run SimCity 3000 Unlimited:
wine: Unhandled page fault on read access to 0xffffffff at address 0x409868 (thread 0009), starting debugger... Unhandled exception: page fault on read access to 0xffffffff in 32-bit code (0x00409868). Register dump: CS:0023 SS:002b DS:002b ES:0000 FS:0063 GS:006b EIP:00409868 ESP:0032fccc EBP:0032fdb4 EFLAGS:00010216( R- -- I -A-P- ) EAX:0032fcd4 EBX:00000001 ECX:00000067 EDX:00400000 ESI:00000000 EDI:00400000 Stack dump: 0x0032fccc: 0032fdb4 0040e5bd 00000000 00400000 0x0032fcdc: 00000067 00416860 0013aa94 7b8b4ff4 0x0032fcec: 00000002 0032fd10 7bcbbff4 0032fd78 0x0032fcfc: 00400000 f7547bd6 f7547c6d 00000094 0x0032fd0c: 00000005 00000001 00000a28 00000002 0x0032fd1c: 76726553 20656369 6b636150 00003320 000c: sel=0067 base=00000000 limit=00000000 16-bit --x Backtrace: =>0 0x00409868 in sc3u (+0x9868) (0x0032fdb4) 1 0x004169b2 in sc3u (+0x169b1) (0x0032fe40) 2 0x7b85f76c call_process_entry+0xb() in kernel32 (0x0032fe58) 3 0x7b860b0b in kernel32 (+0x50b0a) (0x0032fe98) 4 0x7bc77f40 call_thread_func_wrapper+0xb() in ntdll (0x0032feb8) 5 0x7bc7adff call_thread_func+0x9e() in ntdll (0x0032ff98) 6 0x7bc77f1e RtlRaiseException+0x21() in ntdll (0x0032ffc8) 7 0x7bc4dd71 call_dll_entry_point+0x540() in ntdll (0x0032ffe8) 8 0xf75e24bd wine_call_on_stack+0x1c() in libwine.so.1 (0x00000000) 9 0xf75e259e wine_switch_to_stack+0x2d() in libwine.so.1 (0xffcc1ea8) 10 0x7bc539c8 LdrInitializeThunk+0x3c7() in ntdll (0xffcc1f18) 11 0x7b867310 __wine_kernel_init+0xbcf() in kernel32 (0xffcc3038) 12 0x7bc5409b __wine_process_init+0x18a() in ntdll (0xffcc30c8) 13 0xf75dfffe wine_init+0x2ad() in libwine.so.1 (0xffcc3138) 14 0x7bf00dbb main+0x8a() in(0xffcc3588) 15 0xf7431605 __libc_start_main+0xf4() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 0x00409868: scasb %es:(%edi) Modules: Module Address Debug info Name (48 modules) PE 400000- 456000 Export sc3u PE 10000000-1000c000 Deferred drvmgt ELF 7b800000-7ba44000 Dwarf kernel32 \-PE 7b810000-7ba44000 \ kernel32 ELF 7bc00000-7bcd8000 Dwarf ntdll \-PE 7bc10000-7bcd8000 \ ntdll ELF 7bf00000-7bf04000 Dwarf ELF 7e52b000-7e5af000 Deferred rpcrt4 \-PE 7e540000-7e5af000 \ rpcrt4 ELF 7e5af000-7e5b5000 Deferred libxfixes.so.3 ELF 7e5b5000-7e5c0000 Deferred libxcursor.so.1 ELF 7e72d000-7e756000 Deferred libexpat.so.1 ELF 7e756000-7e78b000 Deferred libfontconfig.so.1 ELF 7e78b000-7e79b000 Deferred libxi.so.6 ELF 7e79b000-7e7a6000 Deferred libxrandr.so.2 ELF 7e7a6000-7e7b0000 Deferred libxrender.so.1 ELF 7e7b0000-7e7d5000 Deferred imm32 \-PE 7e7c0000-7e7d5000 \ imm32 ELF 7e7d5000-7e7f7000 Deferred libxcb.so.1 ELF 7e7f7000-7e7fd000 Deferred libuuid.so.1 ELF 7e7fd000-7e817000 Deferred libice.so.6 ELF 7e817000-7e94e000 Deferred libx11.so.6 ELF 7e94e000-7e960000 Deferred libxext.so.6 ELF 7e960000-7e9f3000 Deferred winex11 \-PE 7e970000-7e9f3000 \ winex11 ELF 7e9f3000-7ea03000 Deferred libbz2.so.1.0 ELF 7ea03000-7ea1a000 Deferred libz.so.1 ELF 7ea1a000-7eab6000 Deferred libfreetype.so.6 ELF 7eae3000-7eb53000 Deferred advapi32 \-PE 7eaf0000-7eb53000 \ advapi32 ELF 7eb53000-7ec29000 Deferred gdi32 \-PE 7eb60000-7ec29000 \ gdi32 ELF 7ec29000-7ed87000 Deferred user32 \-PE 7ec40000-7ed87000 \ user32 ELF 7ef87000-7ef94000 Deferred libnss_files.so.2 ELF 7ef94000-7efd3000 Deferred libm.so.6 ELF 7efd6000-7efdd000 Deferred libxdmcp.so.6 ELF 7efdd000-7efe6000 Deferred libsm.so.6 ELF 7efe6000-7f000000 Deferred version \-PE 7eff0000-7f000000 \ version ELF f73e6000-f73eb000 Deferred libdl.so.2 ELF f7410000-f7414000 Deferred libxinerama.so.1 ELF f7414000-f7418000 Deferred libxau.so.6 ELF f7418000-f75be000 Dwarf libc.so.6 ELF f75be000-f75d9000 Deferred libpthread.so.0 ELF f75d9000-f771c000 Dwarf libwine.so.1 ELF f771d000-f773f000 Deferred ld-linux.so.2 ELF f773f000-f7740000 Deferred [vdso].so Threads: process tid prio (all id:s are in hex) 00000008 (D) C:\Program Files (x86)\Maxis\SimCity 3000 Unlimited\Apps\sc3U.exe 00000009 0 <== 0000000e services.exe 00000026 0 0000001e 0 00000018 0 00000017 0 00000015 0 00000010 0 0000000f 0 00000012 winedevice.exe 0000001c 0 00000019 0 00000014 0 00000013 0 0000001a plugplay.exe 00000020 0 0000001d 0 0000001b 0 00000021 explorer.exe 00000022 0
I tried to run SimCity 2000 Special Edition, under Wine, but no dice:
wine: Unhandled page fault on write access to 0x00000000 at address 0x7ddadb9f (thread 0024), starting debugger... Unhandled exception: page fault on write access to 0x00000000 in 32-bit code (0x7ddadb9f). Register dump: CS:0023 SS:002b DS:002b ES:002b FS:0063 GS:006b EIP:7ddadb9f ESP:00c1e284 EBP:00c1e708 EFLAGS:00010246( R- -- I Z- -P- ) EAX:00000000 EBX:7ddb3ff4 ECX:00008000 EDX:00161dc0 ESI:00161f00 EDI:0000000a Stack dump: 0x00c1e284: 00000000 00000000 00000000 00000000 0x00c1e294: 00000000 00000000 00000000 00000000 0x00c1e2a4: 00000000 00000000 00000000 00000000 0x00c1e2b4: 00000001 00161f0c 00000000 ffffffff 0x00c1e2c4: 00000000 00000000 00000000 00000000 0x00c1e2d4: 00000000 00000000 00000000 00000000 000c: sel=0067 base=00000000 limit=00000000 16-bit --x Backtrace: =>0 0x7ddadb9f in wing32(+0xdb9f) (0x00c1e708) 1 0x7ddaf39b in wing32 (+0xf39a) (0x00c1e7a8) 2 0x7ece9346 SendDriverMessage+0x85() in winmm (0x00c1e818) 3 0x7ecee1d4 in winmm (+0xe1d3) (0x00c1e868) 4 0x7ecf075e in winmm (+0x1075d) (0x00c1e8c8) 5 0x7ecf0ba4 mciSendCommandW+0x53() in winmm (0x00c1e928) 6 0x7ecf1187 mciSendCommandA+0x2a6() in winmm (0x00c1e998) 7 0x7ddacde8 in wing32 (+0xcde7) (0x00c1e9e8) 8 0x7bc77f40 call_thread_func_wrapper+0xb() in ntdll (0x00c1ea08) 9 0x7bc7adff call_thread_func+0x9e() in ntdll (0x00c1eae8) 10 0x7bc77f1e RtlRaiseException+0x21() in ntdll (0x00c1eb18) 11 0x7bc812f5 in ntdll (+0x712f4) (0x00c1f368) 12 0xf75a7d08 start_thread+0xd7() in libpthread.so.0 (0x00c1f468) 13 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 14 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 15 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 16 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 17 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 18 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 19 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 20 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 21 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 22 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 23 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 24 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 25 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 26 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 27 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 28 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 29 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 30 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 31 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 32 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 33 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 34 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 35 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 36 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 37 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 38 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 39 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 40 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 41 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 42 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 43 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 44 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 45 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 46 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 47 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 48 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 49 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 50 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 51 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 52 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 53 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 54 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 55 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 56 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 57 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 58 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 59 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 60 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 61 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 62 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 63 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 64 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 65 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 66 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 67 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 68 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 69 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 70 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 71 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 72 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 73 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 74 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 75 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 76 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 77 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 78 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 79 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 80 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 81 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 82 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 83 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 84 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 85 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 86 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 87 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 88 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 89 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 90 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 91 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 92 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 93 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 94 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 95 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 96 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 97 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 98 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 99 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 100 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 101 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 102 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 103 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 104 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 105 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 106 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 107 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 108 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 109 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 110 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 111 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 112 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 113 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 114 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 115 0xf74e5a4e __clone+0x5d() in libc.so.6 (0x00000000) 116 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I've made it back to my normal Twitter account. I've logged my posts on this account after the jump.
For older tweets, see my previous post.
Due to some issues I have, I've 'ducked' out of my usual Twitter account and ended up on a protected account which I don't advertise. Here's my log since I created it.
(The actual stuff is after the jump.)
I'd say my favorite of the tracks would be 【波音リツキレ音源】ODDS＆ENDS(full)【UTAUカバー】 (YouTube).
My social life is sort of a vicious cycle: At its simplest, it's a battle between wanting attention and being afraid of it.
When I'm lonely, I often strive to find people with which I can surround myself to form a sort of 'safety net' when I feel like communicating or sharing things, be them things I find or things I create. I push myself into social situations where good times are had, but after which I feel terrible for having done so.
I start interacting with these friends I've found regularly and we build up a shared history, as well as knowledge about each other. We start to care about each other more, and try to help each other through the bad times. However as I see them being pained by any bad moments I have, I start feeling worse because I don't want to see them sad. It becomes a positive feedback loop which can spiral out of control.
Eventually, things start getting out of hand and I feel like everything I've built up is just going to make me worse. I no longer can withhold information which I don't want them to know since they know me so well. At this point, I start creating a subconscious defensive strategy where I try to push them away, usually by trying to use logic to try to somehow 'convince' them that I am only detrimental to their happiness. This often fails, since we're pretty close at this point, and when it keeps failing, I escape from the entire social scene.
A while after escaping, I start to feel lonely again, which starts the cycle anew.
I think that's part of why I don't want to date: After my last relationship ended based on this pattern, I didn't want to curse anyone else with having to deal with it.
